why everyone also like that???

Actually friday they plan to watch the CNY movie but lok say he can't make it so we as a friend also cancel our plan.
This few day i dunno why so bad luck everyone treat me so bad whatever also blame me, make me yday feel want to commit suicide in the end i just use a knife cut my finger make my finger so many blood. Now only i realize i just a small character in everyone heart and not important to they all even how i treat they good. Yesterday i plan to eat 10 tablet of pills maybe i die le in the heaven will many ppl treat me good better live in this world let ppl blame me. My parents, sister, brother, friends and even my lao gong also treat me like that no die also no use lah.
Yesterday i argue with my parents actually just a small matter but dunno why they scold me like a hell and say want to bit me what happen to them oh. I just tell them if want to talk dun wan listen the songs and i say like that very noisy like that only mah, they sendiri in a bad mood why want to lepaskan geram on me woh so innocent you know so sad, then nvm loh last time about my brother de i ask he buy VCD but he buy a CD for me and blame me din say it and waste money what the fuck lah i got tell ah just he din listen it properly why is my fault again then ok loh my sister pula last times go HK de pics all lost dy now their memory stick is empty hello how i know tak akan i delete ur photo meh what can i get woh if i delete it they blame me is me make it lost de sigh me again, my friends pula i din say the words they say i got say like theresa like that then i tot the only ppl can help me is my lao gong who know he more teruk. Last times we go Central market buy drinks he argue with his mum in the phone but he nt dare o scold his mum in the end i'm the mangsa suddenly scold me n when i go his home he purposely take his shoulder push me and this few day. Treat ppl good what i get in the end ppl wont appreciate me. I help my mum do so many housework in the end they also not sayang me but sayang my brother and sister who din not do work at all sigh.....Start 2day i wont treat ppl so good in the end the i'm the one who is painful. Die is a best solution for me maybe they will happy if i do so......