Sigh my headache almost 2 weeks already until today still not yet recover. Tuesday ago is just take sick leave because my head really very pain i so scare that i will die. My work getting more and more, everyday go to work also want to pretend like nothing because i do not want to let my colleagues know about that, if they really concern than is okie i just scare they have negative thinking.
I so hope that my work can be less, but i really can tell myself i almost can't stand for it already. My brain like going to burst, because i not a genius or expert not everything that they teach me i can absorb i already try my best to understand it. Although i almost 3 months in this company, but i still blur with all the procedures, seem that i not yet catch up what i learn now but my boss keep giving me jobs, sometime need to go training for loan or mortgage. Those thing really so complicated when i think of it i really very scare. Just like few days ago, just a simple thing i also can forget. The secretary asked me where i put the file after i scan, i really cannot remembered at all because 1 day i scan almost more than 20 pieces of paper when u asked me i really do not know which is it. Everytime heard chanel said herself useless and stupid, i feel i more worse than her. In this company i really do not know i can stand how long for it, going to give up......
Yesterday i had my dinner at my lao gong home, i thought i too tired then only i will feel faint until i eat rice also can't see the plate clear until 2day i working my head really very pain, so when i do my work i really see those thing very blur and not so clear, i really scare that my brain grow tumour.
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